4.30.2015

Why do intelligent people buy lottery tickets?
Because it's the "imagining," much like healthy erotic desire.
Anticipation ("what would it be like"?) is where it's at...



4.29.2015

Sex Book Recommendation: Dr Tatiana's Sex Advice

Intimacy..."INTO ME SEE"





4.26.2015

Classes and Groups in North County: babysitting, weight loss, Asthma

Great Classes Offered - Many are Free!
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weight, CPR, babysitting, acupuncture, bereavement and more...


4.24.2015

What is Suicide?


Suicide is the Result of Severe Brain Dis-ease: The Brain is Diseased, Dis-eased


The last two weeks have brought 5 suicides to my attention. Not my personal loved ones, but people and families that are facing this new and horrible fact. Their loved one will not ever return and they are stuck with the WHY's and the "I should haves" - even distant friends and family, maybe those pushed away earlier by the deceased, will feel somewhat guilty for what they could not do - the phone call not returned, the slightest tiff or huge argument - prevent the brain disease.
It is a tremendous pain in the brain that cannot, for the moment, be alleviated with medicine, exercise, drinking, sleep, or logic.
The brain, in its dis-eased state, cannot be reasoned with or cooled down.
It is searing fire. In its fight or flight mandate to survive, it will attempt to problem-solve, and herein lies the very misdirected thinking that leads to suicide. “If I end my life, I will fix (stop) my problems. I’m not helping anyone and this sickness is more than I can bear. It will never go away. I am a burden to others.”
Suicide is the decimation or domination of clear thinking, overpowering coping skills and pushing out any feelings of being loved or needed.
And, like many diseases, we don't understand where it originated, where it took hold, why such a loved one got it when others did not.
Diseases do not favor one person over another: we cannot say, "he was so talented, why him?" or "she had so much to live for, how could she have given in to ---."
Many narrowly escape this terminal ending of brain disease.
After more than three decades, I have been "close" to suicide more than the average person. I have spoken in depth to loved ones who have lost a family member to suicide (child, parent, spouse) as well as folks that have tried and failed, and then, a few who tried and ultimately succeeded.
Have you ever tried to solve a complicated math problem? If it's beyond your abilities, you will probably give up, knowing it’s pointless, saying something like "I will never get this. I don’t have the brain power, patience, motivation - to work it out. I can't solve it!" The fact is, there are math problems that I simply will never be able to solve, and I know it. Life is sort of a math riddle; lots of rules that nobody can ever accurately relay to us, we just kind of "get it" at some point, if we're lucky (luck is defined as the cocktail of  DNA, family, health, temperament, spirit, opportunity).
"I can't get this thing called life. Other people can. I can't and I never will. It’s just out of my reach and I give up," is the exhaustion and frustration speaking.
Those who complete their suicide have almost always tried it before, maybe once, usually several times. Suicide is the end of a long road. It’s physically painful. Air hurts. Not for a day. Not for a week, or a month, but years. Feelings of hopelessness, combined with impulsivity - mix in chronic pain, job loss, a recent heartbreak. Problem-solving experiments show that the first thing to go is creativity when pressure is increased. Creativity is an outgrowth of time, patience, clear-thinking, freedom, respite. Once creative problem-solving is squashed, ideas run dry and hope for the future is greatly diminished. Thinking becomes like molasses.
Finally, suicide is not meant to punish other people. That’s far too devious for the person buried under a mountain of ash, unable to gasp a full breath, racing heart, feeling of dread, terror, panic, shame…these are the words and feelings I have heard about.
Please do not refer to someone's suicide as a selfish BIG FUCK YOU. See it from their pinhole shaft of light. Would I be angry at another disease that takes a loved one’s life? Would I feel shame if my child or parent is taken by cancer or pneumonia? No...I would reason that an illness took his life.








4.21.2015



Therapy is not selfish act; it can be painful and tedious, time-consuming and expensive.

But, to be the focus of a thoughtful person who is listening, caring and helping to make sense of life’s chaos is something that the Internet can never provide. 

Googling your shrink

4.10.2015

Young adults...

Life is a climb.
Do not "look for your passion."
Find a job, any job.
Work hard.
Be honest.
People who lie about little things will lie about big things.
Don't hide.
Finish school as quickly as possible ~anon



4.06.2015

Suicide...Why Does Someone End Their Life?



Suicide is the result of a severe brain dis-ease

The brain is diseased, dis-eased

The last two weeks have brought 5 suicides to my attention. Not my personal loved ones, but people and families that are facing this new and horrible fact. Their loved one will not ever return and they are stuck with the WHY's and the "I should haves" - even distant friends and family, maybe those pushed away earlier by the deceased, will feel somewhat guilty for what they could not do - the phone call not returned, the slightest tiff or huge argument - prevent the brain disease.

It's not like most other diseases where a blood test or mass can prove the toxin is present. 

Howe‎ver, there are several diseases that also do not meet that criteria: we simply rely on a series of red flags, arrows that point in a certain direction before we can sum up the diagnosis.

Would I be angry at another disease that takes a loved ones life? Would I feel shame if my child or parent is overtaken by, say, cancer or pneumonia? No...I would intellectually understand that an illness took his life,  disabled his immune system.

It is a tremendous pain in the brain that cannot, for the moment, be alleviated with medicine, exercise, drinking, sleep, or logic.

The brain, in its dis-eased state, cannot be reasoned with or cooled down.

It is searing fire. In its fight or flight mandate to survive, it will attempt to problem-solve, and herein lies the very misdirected thinking that leads to suicide. “If I end my life, I will fix (stop) my problems. I’m not helping anyone and this sickness is more than I can bear. It will never go away. I am a burden to others.”

Suicide is the decimation or domination of clear thinking, overpowering coping skills and pushing out any feelings of being loved or needed.

And, like many diseases, we don't understand where it originated, where it took hold, why such a loved one got it when others did not.

Diseases do not favor one person over another: we cannot say, "he was so talented, why him?" or "she had so much to live for, how could she have given in to ---."

Many narrowly escape this terminal ending of brain disease. 

·     We cannot totally prevent cancer, or brain disease, but we can be proactive and do some things that lead to good health and well-being. 


·         Learn about healthy behaviors


·         Talk about healthy behaviors


·         Ask experts about health and well-being


·         Look for signs of poor health


·         Move beyond embarrassment over moods, problems, appearances. It's just stupid to worry about how we "look" to others.  


·         It's smart to worry about how we feel and how we function in the world, our community.


·         Be the educated one - bring it up, ask questions, shirk away from silent suffering.


·         Do not endorse or support macho, prideful thinking or behaviors in others. It can cause brain disease.




4.04.2015

"Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a different past"


 

"Prepare the child for the path, not the path for the child."