Mammogram Mindfulness
by Diana Shimkus
by Diana Shimkus
Today, while preparing for a mammogram, I noticed an unusual
contraction in my solar plexus, signaling some distress. I entered into inquiry
of this body sensation, and was curious about its root source. Before long, I
was quickly led to the imaging room by a lovely technician who kindly asked how
I was doing. I told her that I was noticing some very slight physical tightness
in the abdomen and was guessing that this might suggest some unanticipated
anxiety. She promptly offered, "You shouldn't feel that
way", and gave me several factual reasons my dis-ease was unfounded.
I was prepared to "be polite" and to tell her
things were fine, but recollected my commitment to wise speech and decided to
risk the truth. After a few breaths, I went on to tell her that it was obvious
to me that she intended her statement to relieve my distress and that I could
see her good heart in wanting my well being.
I also told her, that when she
said, "you shouldn't feel that way", I had a reaction of more intense
body contraction along with a feeling of inadequacy, that was not her fault but
rather an old reaction to the old limiting believed thought that I was
"getting it wrong".
As I relayed my experience, the technician became
tearful, which quickly prompted my own welling up in the shared truth of our
human vulnerability. After a moment, she shared, "I know I said that to
you. When you just shared that with me, I actually heard the words I say to
myself everyday. Your distress made me nervous and I didn't want that."
This is an example of compassion and mindfulness spontaneously arising from the shared truth of the moment. I am grateful to the technician for her profound willingness to share her real self with me. May we all be fearless in our pursuit of the reality of our own experience and that of the moment. May we never be separated from this truth, ourselves and each other. May we all be well.
This is an example of compassion and mindfulness spontaneously arising from the shared truth of the moment. I am grateful to the technician for her profound willingness to share her real self with me. May we all be fearless in our pursuit of the reality of our own experience and that of the moment. May we never be separated from this truth, ourselves and each other. May we all be well.
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